30/10/2010

Another Year Gone By

I have been trying to recollect all the happenings since last October.Last year ended on a really blissful note,got to attend a great sapthaham(First sapthaham in my life) at Haridwar first followed by another one at Mudikondan and also a blissful stay at Ramanashram ,Tiruvannamalai.Also had the good fortune of witnessing the last few days of Karthigai Deepam atop the magnificent Arunachala and chanting Aksharmanamalai.I was awestruck to see all the foriegners at the ashram chanting the Aksharamanamalai with so much ease and great Tamil pronunciation.I am short of words to express the beauty of the Arunachala hills.I thoroughly enjoyed the Giri valam (14km parikrama)which took me around 2 1/2 hours.The amazing aspect of the girivalam was that I felt ever so fresh after the parikrama,though this was my first time in all my life that I walked the distance.There is so much to be said about this,more on that some other time may be.

The new year was ushered in with all these wonderful and memorable experiences in life.
Well,after that life was as usual and was back to the routine and mundane.
February brought in some fun time what with both the kids coming over for a vacation though a rather short one.
May,June July were truly wonderful times of the year so far I believe.Most of the extended family met for amma's 83rd birthday at Pune and everyone I trust had a great time,because many of them were meeting after more than a decade may be.
One thing that makes me genuinely happy and contented is that I was able to give my mother a very happy and enjoyable time for a few months.Am indeed thankful and grateful for getting this opportunity,because as of today her health is in such a state where she may probably not be able to travel any more.I must thank God and Guru for giving me a chance in life to do atleast a little for my mother who has been so selfless and been there for me always.I remember reading somewhere "God created mother's on Earth because he could not be present everywhere",so very true I think.I believe this is true to all mother's generally.I do very earnestly pray that I too be a mother who will be cherished by my children always.
My Pune stay was special this time in some other ways too,because this time there certainly was Grace flowing my way in great abundance.I had the good fortune of getting to know some wonderful people and also plenty of satsangh.
This year also gave me something which I have been wanting and looking for,for quite a long time now.I wanted to be able to read Srimad Bhagavatham with some good audio support and sure enough my prayers were answered so beautifully.These are sure incidents when I am reassured that I am being taken care of by Him always and have nothing to worry about.Jai Guru!!!
Well, the last couple of months to be true have been actually pretty mundane and me just doing aimless stuff and unable to get back my focus.I do accept everything as it is and am sure that I will get back to where I belong soon enough.
The thought that is presently overpowering my mind these days is "what is my purpose here and why am I here"??
Wonder if I do get the answer in this life???
Am working hard and attempting sincerely to accept all situations as God given and do my part 100%.But I do encounter situations where my I and Ego pops up and plays its part,and then it takes me a while to get back an remind my self that I am here to play a role and it is my duty to play that role by giving my 100%.Also believe that all my karmas need to be fulfilled before I get to take the next step.
Will conclude by saying that another year has gone by quickly,with its share of ups and downs,highs and lows.I remind myself of Gurujis teaching where he says whenever the thought of what about me comes up one should do seva and that way automatically our issues are taken care of.Forget yourself and engage in service.Doing my bit for people gives me great satisfacion and peace of mind for sure.
My sincere prayers that the coming year will shower my life with Grace and Give me all that is good for me,rather than all that I ask for.

Samastha Lokha Sukhino Bhavanthu!!!!

Jai gurudev.

2 comments:

Viswanath Venkat said...

My dear Revathy, Pranam. Hail Mother. Jgd. Wonderful Blog, as usual.Typical Revathy style. Sweet and simple, and down to earth. May the blessings of the Lord always be with you.
You have come from the the Absolute Consciousness, and the purpose of your life is to merge back into it.This world is the arena given to you for the purpose of awakening to your True Self, and utilise the instruments given to you to steer you back to your True Reality!Happy journey!! Your journey has started.What more do you want? Lots of love and pranams,
Uncle

JGD!!! said...

Jai Gurudev,
Thank you so much uncleji.I feel so humbled that each and every time you are so very prompt with your feedback right away.
The attempt is as you have so beautifully said to steer back to the True Reality.
Pranam.